having ambitions/dreams that greatly exceed your level of competency is a guaranteed recipe for sadness.
I am a bit of a dreamer myself, i have been brewing on a lot of ideas in my life, but i have rarely actually executed on them, because they're way too ambitious for me, but recently i have been trying to making due though, just doing my best with what i have is way more fulfilling that having a head full of half baked ideas that slowly fade away.
also remember to be present as much as possible, force yourself into that hyper-focused state in whatever way that works for you, where all that matters is where your position is in the universe, you might think you should be somewhere else, but nah you are where you are supposed to be right now, appreciate it for what it is, be grateful that you are present at all and that you have enough spare brain-cells to even think of that in the first place, life truly is a strange blessing, or not, it really depends.
be as autonomous as you can be, treat your game like you are playing skyrim or whatever, if you see a mountain, climb it. i do not claim to break any new ground with this, i just wanted to spill my brain.
(btw do you guys listen to jpop or any other form of gook music?)